sarcasim....

Inspired by Sean.


So i was having a conversation, as innocent as can be, and i was taken aback by the sarcasim in my friend's *cough cough sean cough* voice. and i am convinced that sarcasim should be considered a second language.


how many times have you been sarcastic with someone and they ask "are you serious?" or "are you being sarcasic?" or something along those lines....?


honestly, people dont get it. one may not understand spanish or french or serbian, but it is a foriegn language. nonetheless one still does not understand.... so it should be a considered a foriegn language.


common sense is not so common anymore.

more on this later..

Giving In....

okay, so i finally cracked. so what?! i gave is, i made a myspace (feel free to check it out... www.myspace.com/sasssyfoxxxy) anyways... i've had a myspace before, actually many times... had one, deletd it, had one, delted it. eh its an on going process.....

but now i created one, and its great fun. but so much has changed! last time i was on it was way back in like november/decembed or '07.... holy crap, i dont understand anything anymore :( oh well i'll figure it out...

but this brings me to the point: why? why did i create yet another one? well i gave in. people asked me, i said no, but i finally gave in. so now i have a myspace. oh joy....

but, another point: at what point do we give in? now, i can only speak for myself, but i have no (or very litt) idea how i was hoodwinked into doing so. now it's not that big of a deal, i can juts delete it if i want, but whatever.... it's just interest....


any comments on when you give in, or have any idaea for me of WHY we do it.... comment me... via MYSPACE :) oh its fun saying that.

but what do we give in with? sex, drugs, drinking? i did. Myspace? myspace is a trivial fault to fall into, but what about the serious issues, such as those mentioned previously.... What keeps us from giving in....?



interesting....

Laughing out Loud...

when we are on the ever popular AIM, Yahoo, or in just a regular email, we often use the phrase "lol" and it raises the question in my mind... do we really laugh out loud, or is it just a comfort phrase?


i was/am having a lovely conversation with my great friend, and we are talking n watching each other (that sounds creepy) via webcam. and no i really can see him laugh out loud. its great!

but when you use "lol" are u really laughing out loud? i have learned to look past it, just read over it, so i never kno if ur laughing at all... nor do i care...

like "lol" has become just like a spasm we type when things happen... or like when there is nothing else to be said... just lol falls out like finger vomit (i donno how that would work, but im trying to comapre it to "word vomit")....


just more useless thoughts for ur mind.... jjust watch when u use LOL and how do u use it....?



siging off...

LOlL... sorry funny thought... bye!

Everything is [perfect] now..

okay, so here i am pondering, like always. my mind is constanly working, and here i am stuck on a certain subject that im going to throw out there.

Cheating? Where do u stand? Once a cheater always a cheater? Do u still love some one for it? Okay, refering back to my previous post of LOVE, okay lets just all assume were in love for the sake of argument....

so if the person you love cheats on you, do u take them back? what if they were srunk? does being under the influence make the pain any easier? i for one believe that when your drunk your true colors show. someone may say "oh i was horny and wanted sex and u weren't there..." Bull fucking shit!! if you truly love someone, you'll only want them no matter what influence your under.... hypnotizism is something completly different....

does cheating once alwaya make you a cheater? i have to say nay. i believe iy depends on the reaction you get... here's a story: i cheated on my boyfriend with a girl. hefound out, confronted me, we moved on. i cheated again, i told him, he got over it and moved on. i broke up with him for the girl. NEVER ONCE CHEATED ON HER. i cheated on the boyfriend because i was unhappy and looking for somethig different, and i found it.

People who cheat are looking for something they don't have. But this raises the situation: after the naughty deed has been done, they sometimes (mostly) go back to their previous lover claiming they love you, it was a mistake, they'll never do it again... yada yada. But there is still the question: DO YOU TAKE THEM BACK?!?!!?

I am convinced that it is a 50/50 chance. it depends on the lover whom was cheated on. if my lover of past tense cheated on me, i would still take her back, but if my future girlfriend cheats on me, i have no idea what i'll do. Maybe i would be asking her to cheat so i have a reason to break up with her. Or maybe i will take her back, i cannot say yet, i do not have a said girlfriend to test this thory on. so i don't kno when i'll know...


just my late night thoughts.... good night <33


Beau

with all my heart...

so while i was watching my favorite lesbian based TV show, the L word, i was thinkin of the whole concept of love. it is so complex that the only way to feel it is through another strand of conplex emotions. i once was in love, with a girl no less. i have her to thank for a lot of who i am, and what i desire to be. So thanks Mocha Bear. =) Any hooters....


Love:

it is such a wonderful euphoric feeling. we all like to think we love. we love our puppy, we love our parents, we love our frineds, but are we in love with them. I love my friends dearly, but i would never want to sleep with them and wake up next to them everyday for the rest of my life. My dear love that broke my heart i would have been happy for the rest of my life with her. Thanks to her, i am very confident in my "negative lifesytle." She is not the focus of this blog, so moving on....

since i am gay, i cannot get married in all states. well you may say "beau, go to Canada or Mexicao, or Europe" or where ever. I would, but upon my return to the lovely land of the free, home of the brave, the marriage liscence would be invalid and not given proper credit. so i say BULLSHIT!! we [we being the gay community] love too! personally, i believe that we love so much stronger than straight people. We have to search harder (in most cases) and when we find someone we love we hold them dear for forever!! i still hold my ex girlfriend in higher esteem then i do my ex boyfriends.... (i think im gay... =p)

right now i lack the words and emotions for what all i want to say. so as of now... too da loo!

Lazy days...

So here i am sitting in class. what class? no calss. i'm not bored, well not really. hopefull i'll pass the class... .better go and pay attention....


the most beautiful girl just walked in. her name will always be a mystery to you as well, not to betray her privacy. That wouldn't be a good way to get her on my side ;)

Right now i am procrasting sleep, or simply wiating for it to come upon me and my senses. My room mate cannot sleep either. We are alike in that way, thank G-d. This is a pretty nifty thing... being able to say whatever the fuck i feel like, and no one can say otherwise. i feel like Alice, and i can do what i want and i have no shame. i am proud and happy with what i am doing. i have yet to say anything of interest, but nonetheless, here u sit, reading the pointlessness that is my mind.


it is rather late in my neck of the woods, 2:26am to be exact. Now that the time has been pointed out to me, by myself ironically, i am feeling the wears of the day on me. i am to hit the hay now. where does that saying come from...? interesting....



Good night, my best wishes to you all...

Well, this is definatly interesting. i've never done this before, but alas, here i am, blogging about Lord knows what. this will most certainly be a very interesting journey into the workings of my mind, cuz in the process of doing so, i will be expressing to the pages that no one will see, yet it is so powerful to help me overcome whatever problems i am going thorugh.

for me figuring things out in my mind requires more attention then most, but less then some. i can think critically about my problems and ideas and be able to go with that and form ideas and feelings about things. so, in my ranting of the workings of, what ever i think of, i will be solving many problems. not just of my life, but maybe that of your life, or some one you know.

"By using each other with all our strengths we grow as a person and as a nation."
-Me

i made that up, but i donno if it's already been quoted, so i decided to quote it if it hasn't :) clever huh?